You are my summer
the sun shining through the trees
the heat melting away all
of the bad.
You are the spring
the flowers that bloom
after everyone thinks that
they may have no future.
You are the autumn,
where leaves fall from trees
but it leaves beauty for all
You are the winter
who finally shows the world in purity
given a new beginning to all mankind.
I came out of the womb without you,
took my first steps without you.
Had my first and last cries without you
and had my first and last laughs too.
I got through preschool without you
and elementary school without you.
Graduated 8th grade without you,
and did all my homework too.
I grew up…
You know what? I don’t care.
I don’t care about your opinion on my hobbies. If something makes me feel good, so be it. We don’t get many chances of that in this life. I know why I like it what I like and I have no need to explain it to you. You don’t have to understand me to respect me.
I don’t care about my job or having a job. I don’t like working. And I’m not sorry I’d rather spent my life on a road trip rather than stuck for eight hours every damn day in the same place. You don’t tell what I’m supposed to do. This is my life.
I don’t care about studying. I love learning but I don’t want to say what the teacher wants to hear. I have my own valid thoughts. And I can’t go through the stress of exams, which are just an instrument of a fucked up education system and have nothing to do with knowledge. You don’t tell me what’s learning and what’s not. Only I get to say what it’s useful to me and what isn’t.
I don’t care about other people. I’ve done it my whole life and it was a mistake. I lost so many things that I can’t recover. I lost myself and my ideas and the many good things I (just recently) believe I have. I don’t need your labels, I’ll make them myself the way I want them. You don’t tell me how I am supposed to be. I’m not here to fullfil your ideals.
You do not tell me how I feel. You do not tell me who I am. You do not complete me.
I decide how I feel. I decide who I am.
And I am complete.”